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I don’t understand how I can't just bounce back to normal.
Like I did with everyone else.
How I threw away the pain and realized that I’ll be better.
Well I'm not better.
My feelings feel so broken that I can't even realize that I'm doing anything correctly.

I can't believe I was just left like that.
I thought everything was fine.
I thought, to me everything was going to be perfect.
Why did I have to be wrong?
I don’t want it to hurt so bad.

I don’t understand.
I don’t understand anything and yet my mind keeps making me think things that did.
I was played.
I was fooled.
I had hopes and wishes that were left out for dust.
I had thoughts that were just filled of everything and now I don’t dare try to think.
I wanted to make more of the memory, but now I'm left with just memories of what I've missed.
I wanted so much, so much of you.
And you gave me nothing.

I still … I still don’t know.
I don’t know where to begin or end.
I wish I did.
But my skies fell apart.
And now I'm left for broken.