Mind Post #Dontremember

Hello mind.
Do you hear the cries?
Not just cries of the heart.
Not the cries that rain down on my fields lately.
But possibly the cries of happiness.

As much as my chest hurts.
As much as my mind is filled with him.
I have found a peaceful place to lie.
And not so much get drenched in the tears of my red clouds.

Happiness intertwined the words of friends.
It sounds so sweet.
And the way he acts now because of it.
Is so wonderful to enjoy.

With everything that had happened.
I finally understand how to control him.
How to control myself.
Even how hard that may be to overcome.
How it now understands that mind I am so fascinated with.
I have learned the way he enjoys to twist the loneliness he beholds.
And counteract it with the space enough for care that his laughs are still lingering.

I enjoy, somewhat that feeling.
This happiness.
And what if.
It was always meant to be this way.
And never anything more.

To think I could have sabotaged everything.
And lost him over something worse.
I don’t think, I could ever live with the truth then.
Never.