Message to Justin.

I somehow don’t know what to do with myself anymore. Every day I gave you everything I had, I waited for you and submerged myself in the ultimate feeling of love about you. Now that everything is gone and you aren’t going to speak one word to me, I carry myself in a sense of loneliness and emptiness. One day, I will forget this emptiness because I will find something to fill it. But I will never forget how much I love you. To be honest with myself, if you came back being who I know you are, I would take you back in an instant. Because from the last year, my whole body and mind has been so infatuated with you that I really forget how to breathe when I remember that happiness I felt. My dear Justin, my dear said wolf that wondered lonely far, I will always love you. As much as I convince myself to forget and never forgive, you will remain so wondrously there. Not because of the pain you caused to me, but because of the happiness you laid upon my face and the skips of my heart beats. I will learn from this supposed rushed mistake, and grow. Grow within my fields and smile as the rain passes. Please always know, your name is etched into the grounds of my heart, where its smothered in the lost love of my golden rye. If you do come back to me in the time when you grow to a stronger heart to speak with, I will submissively smile and give you the open arms of the friend that will always be there. But with the now time, I shall move on graciously and always have my heart filled with your laughter and that rare warm smile that crossed your lips every once in your blue full moon. Because to me, you were the ultimate man to my heart; so perfect, so subtle and so precious. I will laugh soon, don’t you forget … Really don’t forget about me, like I will never forget about you. Justin ... I love you.
~Goodbye hopeless feelings.