I am...

I am straight forward. I am patient. I am kind. I am vain. I am lazy. I am horrible minded. I am your heated desire. I am the flower child hippie. I am the calm before the storm. I am the summer smiles. And I may be your true devil in disguise.
I am all these things, but the things you are that I am not. Fills the voids of what I'm missing and makes me feel beautiful.
Please never leave again. I felt so lonely with half of me missing.

Oh baby~

Sonnet 145.5

I wrote my response to Shakespeare's sonnet 145. I find it quiet lovely.

For whose mind is wrapped around Wisdom’s finger
In such time of certain anger
Came frustration in breathing, “I hate”
Oh to what a surprise it makes!
The single tone seemed to break his walls,
And make what was so guarded glass
To shattered nothing.
But to see such a state within thyn eyes,
Broke the tension and remained in the silence
Where then brought upon a sighful, “I hate”
With all the feeling in a beating heart and waking soul,
The feeling of disturbed mind flew away,
And so peacefully brought back the pleasure of love.
   “I hate” watching his eyes so glossing over from pain,
    came to shine as beauty purposed, so after the “not you.”

...

I really cant.

Please clear up this stuff that happened.

What a joke.

You are such a fucking bitch.

The Bullshit that Happens.

Why is it that everything is about you.

What I hate so much.

I seriously want to stop getting so depressed lately every time I think about him or dream about him or something comes along that reminds me of him... it's killing me from the inside and I don't exactly know how much more I can take ... I wish I never opened up my feelings and kept quiet and never tried letting him back into my life. He ruined everything. He ruined me and he doesn't care. I seriously want to forget about everything but I hardly can when I'm so guarded now from the hurt he gave me. I want so much to be free and be me again ... but I cant. And it's what makes me upset, sad and cry. He ruined everything I was from giving me false hopes and dreams, when in the end he smashed them into a billion pieces. I want everything back to normal ... I hate being broken so much. This is not the best thing in the world whats so ever...

What I want to say.